But most of the time I enjoy the freedom, variety, etc.
BTW, that pic is not my house or anything – just a pic.
Above the other plusses of being solo, I appreciated the faith building aspect of it. As more time goes by, I see over and over again how God will ‘show up’ and bless me. Not that it’s about blessing me or even things ‘going well’ – sometimes they don’t and He’s there too.
But the clearest, easiest thing to see is how when an issue comes up and I stress about it, that it works out. Again, not saying it goes my way necessarily, but it works out.
After a few of those, I started saying to myself “He showed up before and He’ll do it again”… and He did!
Then I started saying “In 3 or 6 months, I won’t remember the issue that’s stressing me out so much right now.” And it’s true – after a while, I have a hard time thinking of what the big deal was.
The issues sometimes seem to be bigger and I try to remember that to Him they’re all nothing. Also, I try to remember what He did before and that this time I get to trust Him w/ something bigger (to me).
Of course, for practical reasons I love being freelance b/c I can be w/ my family in the morning, the evening and various other times. I can be there and you don’t get these days back. Time doesn’t stop and getting a few more hours of work in or finishing some project won’t matter at all in 10 years or 20 years or on my death bed.
Not to be morbid, but as they say “No one, on their deathbed, ever says ‘I should have worked more.'”
Besides, I’m am always right where God has me so I don’t really believe that my efforts will necessarily benefit me. God tends to work ‘backwards’ to our logic: He saved the world w/ a baby.
1 Samuel 16:7 – “…for God sees not as man sees, for man looks at the outwards appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
That’s what matters. Get that right and I have a feeling everything will be also.